I have Autism. They call it high-functioning, but the way I feel and do things, the notions of autism are still present. What they call symptoms.
The levels of sensory of sound and how things feel and move. The stimming (stimulation) of humming, rocking, hand flapping, finger flipping movement that, in my mind, makes me feel better with the cloudy and emptiness that I feel in my brain when trying to think of even the simplest thoughts. Even while writing this I come to a blank. As if my mind is a blank sheet of paper and my thoughts are the ink except there are no ideas, so the sheet is left empty. I feel like thoughts and days are like a logarithm.
Stop What you are doing for just a second and close your eyes and listen. Can you hear the sound that our world is making? Forget about yourself and take an extra second to look around you, what do you see? Now use another second and through your nose inhale deeply. What do you smell? Take your hands and reach out to touch the ground, feel the earth as it rotates. Can you feel that its alive? Now we only have a short time left so take another deep breath. Use your voice. Tell me what’s wrong.